300th Post. Baby!

So I told you that this was coming, that there would be a surge towards the 300^th post. And there was. I have written a crapload this week and as a result some of it is kind of crap. But here we are. The thing is I wanted to get to three hundred because I have something important to talk about. It's something I am very excited about and felt it was just perfect for a big anniversary post like this one.

So what is it? Huh Huh?

Well, I will let the Gooch tell you… only unlike Turk I am not lying.

 

Yep, I am going to be a daddy! We have waited a while to tell people, because we went through a tough time in May and telling too many folks made it hard to get through. My wife is due in August so we are about 3 and a half months along now. It stills feels a bit scary to share it just because you feel somehow like you might jinx it… but I am happy, we are happy, and I wanted to share that here. This blog has become a place for that sort of thing for me. A place to write down my joys and my letdowns, a place to share jokes and the things I like. As I now look into fatherhood, still somewhat detached I look forward to sharing the process with you a bit, although I might not go into to much detail.

I am still very detached from the whole thing, not sure how to feel or what I should be doing to prepare. I have been looking at young families and realizing some of the expenses that will be looming soon enough but I also cant help but notice the kids themselves, hanging out with their families and having fun being chauffeured around. I know it aint all wine and roses, but I do look forward to those moments. There are a lot of moments I look forward to.

I have a lot of friends with kids. A lot. In fact some of those kids are approaching their teens now so I have been around that for a long time. I am not old, only 34, so I don't feel like I waited, we waited too long or anything like that. I think its just that you start to find it hard to relate after a while. Its always about the kids, and by no means do I mean that in a negative way. I mean that you hear about all the amazing things these kids are doing and then when it is your turn to talk about what's up its like, "Umm… I went to the bank… that was fun… oh, and I saw this movie…" It just kind of feels like you need to have a more adventurous life to have something to say that's comparable. I am looking forward to being a parent is my point, because from the outside it looks like an amazing and rewarding experience.

I am also looking forward to being a parent with my wife. Candace is an amazing person, a wonderful and truly gifted person that I get to spend every day with. Since we've been married we joke around about team Craig, but I know that for both of us it goes way beyond joking and into something very real. My life truly would completely and totally suck without her and I know that. So this whole baby thing is really exciting mostly because I get to do that with her. We'll get to share in some pretty awesome experiences through this, although right now I feel kind of useless. I will never ever joke again I think about woman "getting to" carry the child. If there is one odd negative experience in those whole thing, it is feeling kind of left out and not sure what I am supposed to do. I mean, I want to help but what the heck can I do besides running out to the store for ice cream and stuff like that. A wise man told me this week I need to shut up and stop worrying about how I am changing and just listen to my wife. That is my job. I have taken that to heart and I feel better now about it. I was being kind of a nob about that whole thing, but… I got better! I have a bad habit of wanting to figure it all out right now, and I have a feeling I need to grow past that, and in fact as I think about it I want to grow past that.

So there it is, 300 posts and 1 big announcement… well for us anyway.