Health update

I wanted to give y’all an update on how things are going with me since you were so supportive with comments about my leave of absence. I am back at work now, trying to ease back into things. I am going to see a counselor to deal with some serious anxiety issues, something I recently found out I am prone to given my personality. In a normal day I feel pretty good and I feel like I am getting better every day, but I still get attacks, most notably on Sunday mornings. I haven’t been able to preach in person yet, although video seems to work well. It sucks though that I can’t do what I love. Never again will I criticize people who deal with this stuff, never will I think bad thoughts about faking or anything. I think that those who view it from the outside who feel we are faking are merely picking up on the fact that we ourselves are confused by our predicament. It is a very weird experience to consciously want to do something, to have the desire and the excitement, but elsewhere in an inaccessible area of my mind something takes hold and says, “NO!”. I felt discouraged for a long time about this but amazingly now that I have embraced my problems and know that there are solutions I feel much better.


I have appreciated your prayers and thoughts, keep ‘em coming. Baby steps…